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[Jul. 8th, 2006|08:32 pm] |
Livejournal is fucking
your prbally gay
i hate you
I pissed in the sink
Ben wallace is dead to me
I hope you route hell
I should just die
fuck you call
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| Lifetime movies |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|10:47 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Sia- Breathe Me | ] |
This weekend Robbie and I watched a couple of lifetime movies. The first one we watched was The Mary Kay Latourneau story. I think the quote of the night was by me. "If she was gonna fuck an 11 year old she could of chosen a hotter one". The funny thing was when I told Karla that she totally agreed haha. We also watched the Diane Downs mini series small sacrifices. That lady was crazy.
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| A New Year, same ol' me |
[Jan. 15th, 2006|12:35 am] |
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| |  optimistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Smashing Pumpkins: 1979 | ] |
Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away.
I really like this quote because 1) gotta love carrie bradshaw and sex and the city, 2) its just so ture. I hate how people always try to be so perfect and live on a pre-destined path. I for one am very flawed and have the time make don;t always make the best decisions. But, thats okay. Not sure where I am going with it.
Well its 2006. I literally rang in the new year with a bunch of crack heads. 2005 was an eventful year with all that went on with my dad, graduating from college, moving home, joining americorps. It was good year I learned a lot who were the people who were gonna be there for me. I also had lot fun... drank a lot of beer, kissed a lot of boys, I even went to a nudist beach haha.
2006 I am not sure what is in store. But I do know that I like how its starting. I have an amazing boyfriend who is way too good to me. My job is pretty decent although I get annoyed on a daily basis I know I am working for a good cause and gaining a lot of experience. I also have the sweetest doggy in the world who always good for a good cuddle on a bad day. Not to mention my good friend who never fail to make me laugh. Oh and another good thing is that my favorite basketball team the detroit pistons are kicking everyones ass and will likely to continue the ass kicking until they get there rings.
Life is just as scarey when things are going good. Things right now seem too good to be true. But you know I say fuck it, stop waiting for things to get bad and enjoy the good times while they keep rolling. |
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| Should I stay or should I go? |
[Sep. 13th, 2005|09:24 pm] |
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| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | All American Rejects: Dirty Little Secret | ] |
Today I was sitting in my cubicle and I almost chocked on a peice of gum. It was scarey.
I'm thinking about getting out of Oregon for a couple of years after my Americorp term is over. Oregon is great and all. The perfect place to be if you're a young liberal minded girl. But, alas I cannot explain it I feel this need to branch out. Maybe go somewhere with a little more diversity. Too many middle class white people in this god damn state. The logical choice would be Michigan, but alas I fear it would be too cold. My bro lives there and there are a lot of good grad programs there including the best one in the country (I dunno if I am that smart though). Oh where to go? Especially if a certian thing happens then I think I am as good as gone.
I do have to say Salem is like a 10000% better since Karla lives here now too. Horay for Karla! Its nice to see her on a weekly basis. Honestly, I think girls for the most part are a whole lot of drama (except for me of course), but Karla is super chill and super fashionable. She is my kind of girl. Kudos to Karla. The weekend before 10/10 we are so going to throw Karla a kick ass birthday party. I think we shall go to P-Town, so alas Portlanders come party hardy with us har har har!
I think I am going to volunteer at a nursing home and spend time with lonely old people. I think its cool that Kanye West said Bush hates black people. I also think its cool that I get free perscriptions with my new health insurance. I don't think crazy kids with lazy eyes are very cool.
Robbie is getting into the movie buisness. I am so gonna be his executive producer. We have a really good idea, but I can't share it on here because some asshole will steal it before its even copywritten.
Well my friends I better go to bed. This 8-5 thing is lame, I so go to bed at 10! How sad. |
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| Death, HBO, and Mill Creek |
[Aug. 5th, 2005|01:33 am] |
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| | The Golden Girls Theme Song | ] |
Dear Journal,
Blah I only have like 2 more weeks of being unemployed that blows! Oh well at least I will be getting some moola. On August 22 I have to go to Utah for pre service americorp orientation. I wish they could have it some place cooler instead mormonville usa. I hope there are some hot americorp guys there, that would could be fun.
Today Robbie and I went swiming at Mill Creek. THere was this creepy serial rapist looking guy that was listening to country music. He totally looked like he could of been the one who kidnaped brooke, but oh yeah some freak was arested for that. Anyways the water was really nice, it wasn't jam packed which I am sure north fork was. I hate fuckin north fork there is something so unatural about being in a beautiful river with 400 drunk assholes jumping of bridges and shit. Thats why I prefer mill creek or the santiam beach by albany. They are so peaceful.
Robbie and I had a really good discusion about stereotypes today. I would write more about it, but sumerizing the conversation wouldn't nearly give it justice.
My grandpa John died. I guess he just spit up some blood and keeled over. I feel bad for Bev. John he was a wacko, but she loved him. I will drink a PBR in rememberence of him. I think that he would of liked that. I am glad he died on his mountian. Seems like a lot of people are dying. I don't think I mentioned it but my sister in laws mom Carol died in June. She was fucking plowed down by a semi truck. I liked her, she was a good lady, a real pistol. Jill and her were like best friends too, its been real hard on her. The guy that plowed down Carol was charged with some crime and the evidence is being presented to the jury. I hope he pays, that death just shouldn't of happened. Especially since that was his job. Asshole. I hope that the truck company gives Joe (Jill's Dad) a lot of money.
I need to start looking into applying to MSW programs. Ideally I would like to go to PSU, but grad school is competitive, so I need some other places. I think the fact that I will be helping develop a program will be golden on my application. How many 21 year olds can say that! I got my diploma yesterday, its nice to see it in the flesh.
Six Feet Under is my new favorite show! I am so in love with Nate. Robbie is in love with Keith. I wish they were real! Hahah. HBO shows are soooooooooooo much better then regular tv. Fuck censorship I wanna see the violence and graphic sex scenes. But, six feet under is awesome, I am so glad I have a dvd burner now, so I can burn the seasons that I rent off netflix.
Well I'm out. |
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| Watch out for those ninjas |
[Jul. 28th, 2005|01:44 am] |
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| | Fall Out Boy- Sugar Were going down swinging | ] |
So today I was in Eugene due to a number of things: to pick up a package, hang with the felicity, and go Tom's BBQ. Well anyways as I was getting on the belt line I see this homeless guy with this sign that reads "Help my family was killed by ninjas give me money so that I can take karate lessons". Enough said defently the most entertaining part of my day!
Well the summer has been full of unemployment goodness. Whoever said being unemployed sucks seriously doesn't know what they are talking about. Sleeping late lounging around in my robe all day is awesome. I have played a lot of video games and watched way too much daytime tv! Yay for unemployment.
I did get a job though! I am going to be in the Americorps after all. After many rejections I recieved a job offer at mid valley behavioral network I will be developing the EAST community. Basically its a concept right now for a network to provide support for people living with psychosis. Basically I will be turning the concept into reality. Whoa. Also, because my I am the Clara Barton vista americorp I have to become a community responder. So if there is any sort of natural disaster or terrorist attack I am the red cross' bitch. Good times.
Speaking of bitches Bill Davidson is a bitch, I don't care if he is a cute old man. How he could fire Larry Brown is beyond me. Pound for pound larry was the best coach the pistons ever had. Fuck you bill!
Steve and I broke up a while ago. Honestly I just wasn't feeling it. There are better fish in the sea.
What can I say life good, the holly good! Goodbye! |
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| Destiny is Calling |
[Jun. 1st, 2005|08:47 pm] |
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| | Jimmy Eat World - Kill | ] |
Hello Everybody! Gosh tommorow is my last day of classes for college ever. Woah when did I get old! I have to redo 2 assingments for creative writing which I have procrastonated doing for the last month or so, hey whats a few more minutes!
A lot has happened since my last post! I got a new car. Its a 95 toyota corrolla (gotta keep it in the toyota family). I seriously love it, it has leather seats and these bells and whistles that I don't know how to use! 95 was a good year, according to Robbie it was the year One Sweet Day came out and I really love that song.
I also met a boy. His name is steve and I like him a lot. We went to a party on Saturday in Jefferson it was busted up by the cops. It was great being 21. All these minors were so scared of getting MIPs that they were all hiding in this feild that had cows in it! I would much rather shove out the hundered and fifty bucks for a ticket then hide in that field for 2 hours but thats just me. It was a fun party though, there was a live band and lots of boooze.
I also have had 3 job interviews. Two of them went super well, the other went alright. I am supposed to hear from them the second week of June. Hopefully they will hire me I'm a good kid!
The free house fell through which really blows because I have to live with my parents for a while! Gosh:( I want to get a puppy and name it rasheed if its a boy or mimi if its a girl. I am not sure if I want to live in the basement or attic decisions decisions......
I went to silver creek falls and we hiked! It was pretty. We had a picnic, but forgot the silverwear it was alright though, potato salad makes good dip for baked lays.
Well I suppose I should due the last of my homework.. Ahhhhhhhhh! Okay Peace, Love. |
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| I GaurenSHEED this entry is cool! |
[May. 18th, 2005|10:31 pm] |
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| | Black Eyed Peas- Don't Phunk With My Heart | ] |
Hello friends!!! Whats going on. I just looked on my calender and I only have 2 weeks of college left. Holy galcumoli. I don't know if I am really looking forward to comencement. My brother and Jill can't go. Which is okay because Brandon got a new job at union plant (it is very very good). Aunt Nancy and Uncle Phil were gonna come surprise me, but, Nancy and Jessica had to come down last week because Grandma Bev almost died. Oh well comencement is really for the parents anyway. It will be good times maybe I will get some bling bling! I am just glad to that I will have my degree baby.
The weekend will be jam packed with fun. No I am not gonna dress up like an ewok tonight and wait in line for hours to see star wars. I do have an interview type thing at Northwest Human Services on Friday. I also have an Interview with Woodburn School District on Monday. Friday is the daytime emmys. GO EDEN!!! If she doesn't win I am gonna beat up some people she got jipped last year. Saturday, I am going to coffee with a very nice and cute boy:) I have been looking forward to that one all week! Sunday I gots to do Homework. Should be a good weekend.
So funny story the other day I was having a dream that I was Erica Kane's daughter but I was awoken by a car alarm and then I bumped my head. It hurt. Okay it wasn't that funny.
So Pistons are kicking some ass. Indiana sucks without Ronnie Artest (am I the only nba fan who misses that guy ha). Although I do enjoy seeing DALE DAVIS play for Indie. I love the head band Dale. I guaren-SHEED a win tommorow though. Then it will be what I have been looking forward too all season Pistons vs Heat Eastern Conference finals! Pistons are gonna kick some Shaq daddy ass. Just watch.
Alright kids, I'm OuT! |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 28th, 2005|10:56 pm] |
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1) Using band names, spell out your name.
Hoobastank
O-Town
Lit
Life houuse
Yellow Card
2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
Yes I have its a pretty song that goes I like Holly, I like her a lot. Robbie has it on his computer I believe. Awww I miss James!
3) What song makes you cry?
You know lately that we belong together song by mariah really moves me.
4) What song makes you happy?
Hmmm I think I would have to say the Killers mr brightside. Oh and also an old sand by is the Soccor Song!
5) HEIGHT:
5'5"
6) HAIR COLOR:
Brown with sexy blonde highlights
7) EYE COLOR:
Greenish-greyish.
8) PIERCINGS:
just the two on my ears
7) TATTOOS:
i'm a little too conservative for tatoos.
8) WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?
I am wearing a sexy pink nighty! Calm down boys!
9) WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING To?
No music just the news.
10) WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?
Touth paste
11) WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?
Its so nice out! Summer is almost here! YAY
12) HOW ARE YOU?
Excellent
13) GET MOTION SICKNESS?
Only when I am drunk
14) ANY BAD HABITS?
Lately I have been biting my nails like Lebron James
15) GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?
Yeah they are cool. My mother can be a little much sometimes, but I appriciate her. My Dad is kick ass.
16) LIKE TO DRIVE?
I do! Otherwise I would be very depressed since I drive all the freakin time.
17) BOYFRIEND?:
EH Just Robbie, but he never puts out! Nope I am single boys I'm all yours!
18) GIRLFRIEND?:
Hells no
19) CHILDREN?
Thank goodness for birth control! Maybe in 5 years or if there is an accident ha
20) HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE?
I had a hard time getting over my only significant relationship, but that natural.
21) BEEN HURT?
Who Hasn't.
22) YOUR GREATEST REGRET?
I don't really have regrets. I learn from my mistakes. Mistakes have made me stronger, so therefore there is nothing to regret.
23)WHAT BANDS DOES YOUR CD PLAYER HAVE IN IT RIGHT NOW?
In my car I have this great MP3 cd of all of Mariah's Albums including some amazing remixes. Made by my very best friend!
24) IF YOU WERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Jungle Green!
25) WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?
The Houston ROCKETS!!! Robbie, Jessie, baby nephews, playing mario party with Aaron (he is the only one as good as me!), the sun, money, good sex, going out to breakfest
26) WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?
Like I would buy CDs! I enjoy stealing others intellectual property
Do You:
Smoke?
Hell no
Do drugs?
no way jose. Just say no!
Read the newspaper?
I enjoy the Oregonian!
Have a Job:
Unemployment is awesome. But I got to school so I am not a bum!
Attend Church:
If I can get up!
Have you ever:
Been in love?
I'm too young and inexperienced to know what love is <---I like Derek's answer
Gone skinny dipping?
YES its awesome!
Had a medical emergency?
I once had a suvere allergy attack in Minesota and couldn't breath. My brother had to call an ambulance. It was hardcore. Damn soybeans.
Had surgery?
Yes, I had my appendix out. Oh yes my tonsels too.
Swam in the dark?
Yes.
Got Drunk?
Yes.
Played strip poker?
No, but I should anyone in?
Been on stage?
not really
Been on radio/tv?
I was interviewed at some county fair up in Washington when I was like three, and I went on the Ramblin Rod show.
Cologne/Perfume:
Sometimes I wear, So Pink made by GAP
Best//Worst
Game:
Mario Party!! Umm, I also like scategories!
Movie:
Far too many good movies out there. The worst has to be Star Ship Troopers 2.
CD:
It changes! I really like Swiss Army Romance by Dashboard Confessional, the self titled Third Eye Blind CD is really good.
Soda:
Coke
Money:
I like the money in my savings account! |
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| The Dawn Is Breaking... |
[Apr. 25th, 2005|10:51 pm] |
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| | Howie Day: Collide | ] |
How about those Houston Rockets? I personally think they are the best
kept secret nba. But, I think the secret is out! Sorry Drew:( I love
them, I dunno why. Its just like the begining of something really
special. Plus, I have always loved mutumbo!
This weekend I was really stressed about a lot of things : like getting
a job and having a place to live. But, for some reason everything kind
of came together today. The lady who I am suposed to house
finally called (YES FREE HOUSE). Dennis emailed me and told me he
finished filling out my americorp recomendation. So that means
minus a little editing my Americorps application is done. Also, I
emailed this lady from Habbitat for Humanity randomly and she was so
nice. Before I even sent in the application, she wants to do an
informational interview. More face time is a definante plus! I would
love to work there. It combines passions for social service and real
estate. I am just feeling less stressed.
On Sunday I went over to Tom's and steak with him and his roomate. That
was fun. They have a really nice house. I am also becoming a fan of
PBR! I have never much cared for beer in a can, but damn PBR is good.
Hmmm... my grandma is coming to visit this week. It will be nice to see
her. I just saw her in October, but before that I hadn't seen her since
I was 13. She is a nice lady. I am worried about my brother. I wish I
had moeny I could lend him. Oh well. I think he might go back to
school! That would be so awesome. He wants to be an electrician or a
plumber. I think he'd be good at both those things. I should give him a
call.
I have 2 midterms in the next two days blah. One I am prepared for and
the other I am not. But luckily I have all day tommorow and till 4 on
wed to cram. I will do fine, I always do. One thing about my dad being
sick is that I don't stress as much on school. Like I had to take
the day after I found out he was diagnosed and got an A. Same with the
day he had surgery. Speaking of my Dad, he is feeling better. He seems
a little self concious about his scare though. It doesn't bother me at
all. I wish people weren't so retarded and had to stare. I mean who the
fuck cares about a scare when you could be dead. Geez. He seems to be
keeping his spirits up which is good.
Man, 5 more weeks and I am done. I don't really know what I am doing,
but, I got a free place to crash at over the summer. I am just gonna go
for it. Its a little scarey coming out of college with Bush as our
president but what can you do. I was talking to my dad about what he
did after graduation. Its kind of funny I feel bad for not having a
plan, but I think most people kind of wing it. Winging it is kind of
exciting. in its own way.
Well I didn't intend for this entry to be so long. I better get to bed!
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| BVI |
[Apr. 19th, 2005|10:42 pm] |
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| | Gavin DeGraw: I don't wanna be | ] |
I've been so drained the last couple of days. My Dad had surgery last friday. It took like 7 hours when it was only supose to take 3. But they got a lot of lymp nodes out that were probally full of cancer and like half his neck I swear. They took out the juggler vein, muscle, nerves, all sorts of crap. He was pretty beat up and had to stay an extra night at OHSU. OHSU is the nicest hospital I swear. I wanna work there when I'm a social worker. Basically I got no sleep when I was in Portland. I think it was the stress and my moms snoring. Blah. The exhastion really hit me yesterday. Its harder then I think sometimes dealing with surgery then rushing back to school combine that with looking for a summer job and applying to americorps. No wonder I'm tired ha.
One a good note, I am buying a newer car! Its a 1995 corolla. I am excited. It only has 50,000 miles on it and power everything. I can't wait!
Hmmm what else, hopefully I am gonna play video games with Tom tommorow. That should be fun! I will have to kick his ass. Oh the playoffs are coming too! I'll be rooting for the houston rockets and detroit pistons.
Oh and I almost forgot. Robbie and I are getting into the real estate buisness! We are gonna moguls! Just call me Holly Trump. BVI will revolutionize the willamate valley real esate market.
On a final note. I love One Tree Hill! Its the best show ever, right Jessie? |
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| Look who back, Holly's back! |
[Apr. 7th, 2005|10:28 pm] |
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| | Bright Eyes!!!! | ] |
Hello Friends! I have returned from Michigan (that was like 2 weeks ago ha). It was full of snow, daytime tv, playing with nephews, ummm chillin with all my michigan friends, bud light, mario party, bonding with the sister in law, movies watching, and hanging with bro of course. I have the coolest family. Caleb is the sweetest little boy. Chase is just freakin cute (he could be a soap oprea baby). My brother is just blue collar hard working bad ass. Jill is a really fun girl! I will post pics eventually!
Robbie and I might get to live in a super nice house for free all summer. The only catch is we have to babysit an 18 year. But, damn free rent for 3 months! It would be very helpful since we both plan on purchasing vehicles this summer. We might even get soapnet! Ahhhh! I can't wait to be a slave to the government!
Speaking of Americorps, I am going to work on my application this weekend. I have most of it filled out. I need to write an essay. Dear americorp, I have always wanted the oppurtunity to give back to my community blah ass kissing bullshit fucking blah! It will be full of cheese! I think I may apply to a few other americorps programs in addition to the RAPP one. I might even apply to a few Portland ones, since we won't be stuck in a lease down here yet. But, I'd rather get a job in Salem cause rent is cheaper and being a slave to the government I will make very low income.
School is good. I got good winter term grades. My new classes are interesting. I am taking SOC 304 Enviroment and Community, CRWR 241 Creative Writing fiction, and FHS 483 Interpersonal Violence prevention. Only 2 more months and I am done with college! Booyeah.
Tommorow, I need to call Dennis (I miss him he was the coolest boss ever) about working for him this summer and ask him to give me a reference for americorps (he will give me such a good recomendation letter). I hope the budget allows for them to hire me on for the summer. I loved that $15 an hour paycheck (even better since I won't have to payrent). Even though I will be spending a lot of it on a newer car (hopefully an Acura!) and saving the rest. Gosh I love watching my saving account grow. I am such a money grubing whore.
Well I am gonna go watch some AMC cause I am cool like that. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 15th, 2005|10:15 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Howie Day- Collide | ] |
Well friends! I am off to Michigan tommorow at 9am! I am so excited to see my big brother, he is the best! Its gonna be awesome because brandon is taking tommorow, thurs, and fri off! Plenty of bonding time!
This hellish term is over! The last few days of Psy and Law have been so stressful! I have never felt so stressed about a class ever. I guess some teachers just enjoy watching you work your ass of off and giving you a shitty grade. Well luckily I took it pass/no pass... SO SCREW that!
ONE MORE TERM AND I WILL BE A COLLEGE GRAD!! FUCK YES!
Robbie and I have started the hunt for the perfect home! Its so crazy were finally making the big commitment and moving in together! I am already imagining our beautiful living room decor with his big ass gilter poster ha and our framed picture of sheed wallace. Also, I wanna make an 8 x 10 of that picture of us and Clyde the Glyde! I really think it will be a good move for us to be working for the government as americorpians! We will stop the kids from getting pregnant.
I would also like to urge everyone to start using sun screen since the weather is getting nice. Seeing my father suffer through skin cancer has defently gotten me fonder of the SPF! And don't tan its just fucked up. When a see someone who is really tan it makes literally sick to my stomach now. So put on the sun screen please.
Well goodbye my friends I will miss you while I am in the land of the great lakes and wallace brothers! Peace, Love! |
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| What and who I will be doing this week! |
[Mar. 10th, 2005|11:33 pm] |
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| | Dashboard- A sharp hint of new tears | ] |
Man I got a crapload to do before I go to Michigan:
-Go to Salem for my Mom's b-day fri-sat
-Possibly look at some apartments with Robbie since were making the big comitment
-Possibly some Mario Party or other social activity with Aaron and Sam (you game walugi?)
-complete massive psych and law study guide
(important to note have read like a total of 2 times for that class)
-Do massive amounts of laundry
-study with Elizabeth sun at 1PM on Sun
-Review Session for Psy and Law at 2PM mon
-SAPP 410 Final 3:15 Mon
-Massive amounts of studying for psy and law
-Pack Pack Pack
-PSY and Law final 1:00PM tues
-Drive to Salem and do possibly more laundry
-Flight leaves 9:15 AM, My Dad is taking me, what a nice man even with
health problems he is willing to make an AM airpprt drop off! -6:00PM
arrive and grand rapids and freeze my ass off
It will be good to be in the land of the wallace brothers!
 
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| Don't I have the cutest nepherews! |
[Mar. 8th, 2005|11:36 pm] |
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| | PUMPED | ] |
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| | Buck Walker- Mixed Tape | ] |
HOLY CRAP! I just looked at the weather for Michigan its freakin 30
degrees there and I am talking that is the high! I am gonna freeze my
ass of off! But, it will be worth it to see these two! 1 week in
counting! I have written my last paper of the term.
Got a test on thurs, 2 finals next week and then I am DONE! Only 1 term to go wahoo (oh wait the real world is scarey).
 
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| I dunno why but you changed my life |
[Mar. 5th, 2005|11:45 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Life House- You and Me | ] |
Hello my dears! So this week has been interesting. My Dad got the results of a biopsy back and they found another maligimant melonoma spot. Which is fucked up. They ran some more tests and they say the cancer hasn't spread, so thats good. My dad is looking into clinical trials or something. This is all so over my head. I just didn't think I would have to deal with a parent being sick at such a young age. Ugghhh. But, I am just trying to spend time with him and keep things normal. Thats all you can really do. I don't really have the choice of freaking out. Aside from having to be strong, its the end of my term, so I have to finish strong. Sometimes all you can really do is deal.
I have a crush. A big one. He has been a bright spot for me this term. He always makes smile and laugh. He is such a dork and so not my type, but I cannot resist him. I like him, I like him alot! I want him to be mine:)
On thurday after Robbie and I were stalked I was scared to go home, so I stayed with him. It was nice. We ended up talking all night about random things. I was struck by how vividly we were able to descride certian incidents in our childhood. Its funny how Robbie and I are always talking about our childhoods. I don't really ever talk about it with anyone else. It was a good talk. I notice that whenever we have a serious talk its like 4hrs minimum ha! Its good though, I always come out of those talks feeling a learned a little more about myself and more about him too. I think thats how you can tell you have a best friend. Well, best friends seems like an understatement for us. This sounds conceded, but I always think of Robbie's and my friendship more supior then what other people consider "best friends". We are like peas and carrots.
I am really looking forword to going to Michigan in a week and a half. I just need to see my brother. I really miss him with all thats going on. I am also stocked about hanging out with Jill! I she is really sweet and fun. I think we have the potiental to be really close! I am glad my brother married her. She is really great mom especially when you consider her age. I like how she gives my brother a hard time and doesn't put up with his shit ha. Of course I am excited to see my nephews as well. Caleb is at a fun age! My baby chase is a little boy now. They are such adorable kids. I just need a little time away too. It will be good.
Well, its getting late. Goodbye. |
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| kill bill tailgating me on 12th st |
[Mar. 4th, 2005|03:35 am] |
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| |  scared | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Carolina Pride | ] |
Well I figure I'll write a quick entry since I am at robbie's and he is in the shower....we all know how long of showers that boy takes!
A creepy things just happened to the two of us. Well we were watching a movie and one thing lead to another... No just kidding we did not have sex. Anyways, back to the story... so we decided to make a 2am Shari's run and it was a great time full of oreo cookie shakes and chicken. Well, we left I intended to just drop Robbie off and go to my parents. However this creepy car started following us from Sharis to all the way over on pringle. It was so freaky! I got the creepiest feeling and so did robbie! I bet he totally was this creepy guy from sharis whi was staring at us!
Wow, Robbie only took a ten minute shower so I better go get in bed for my gay boyfriend!
Peace, Love! |
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| Sometimes its fun to be bitch and even funner to be a ho! |
[Feb. 21st, 2005|11:25 pm] |
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| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 311- All Mixed Up | ] |
Yo YO YO! How are all my livejournal friends? I am good. Its week 8 holy gacomoli! This year is going by fast. Last week I changed my psy and law class to pass/no pass cause I heard the teacher was a crazy grader. He actually gave people an F on a project worth 70% of our grade. I don't think he would fail my groups paper, but, I am aware it is short and I don't need no C's on my transcript come when I eventually apply to grad schools. The term should be pretty chill since thats the only class I am worried about. This weekend I will devote time to the rest of of my remaining papers.
This weekend was so fun! Friday I got to see my home girl KARLA! Omg I love hanging out with Karla. If she does end up living with us it will be so fun! On Saturday, I humg out with Robbie and his new boyfriend Derek. It was fun! We watched the all star sat events. Josh Smith, that was a sweet dunk over kenyon! Later that evening we met up with Aaron and Sam at applebees. Oh man that was some fun times. I haven't laughed that hard in ages! I love them!
I am a little anxious about something I have learned this weekend. Hopefully it will turn out okay.
Oh that reminds me. For some reason people think that they should avoid telling me somethings because they will cause me stress or whatever. If something needs to be said I would much rather it be sooner or later. I can always tell when people are hiding something and that stresses me out. So tell me it I would much rather just deal with it then be protected. This is not meant for anyone, just an observation I felt I should note.
Man, tommorow I have to register for my last term of college. Wow I feel old! Pretty soon I will be a college graduate (although I try not to think about it because my mind drifts imediately to those DAMN loans ha).
Well I must depart! |
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